ONCE FALLEN ANNOTATED TABLE OF CONTENTS

Part I: A Once Fallen Hope (The story)

  • Chapter 1: Awakening -- The initial shock of my incarceration and the fear of my unknown future
    leads to my “day of awakening,” yet still I hold onto the beliefs which brought me to the cell to begin
    with. Does it really take such a fall for a man to open his eyes? With many of my initial fears
    unfounded, I turned my attentions to the real problem- myself.

  • Chapter 2: Dark Night of the Soul -- Like St. John of the Cross, it felt like the entire world has
    abandoned me. Even harder was that moment when I had to come face to face with my own dark
    side and destroy him once and for all. Through this “dark night of the soul,” I would conquer the
    greatest of enemies. By comparison, the challenges that lay ahead pale in comparison to the fight
    over my own soul.

  • Chapter 3: Trial by Ordeals -- My first taste of freedom came with a unique set of challenges. I
    found myself in a church group home with a rather controversial reputation. Though I tried and
    failed at many of the tasks laid before me, I found this ordeal integral to my future success as an
    advocate in a controversial field in its own right.

  • Chapter 4: Finding My Way -- At long last, it was time for me to spread my wings and fly on my
    own.  Actually, it was more like hobble out on my own, as I spent my first few months of freedom
    devoid of a home. If there is any good from being at the rock bottom, it is that there is only one
    direction to go and that was up. Slowly but surely, I pieced some semblance of a “normal life” over
    time-- a job, a girlfriend, a bank account, and even a credit card! Of course, it is easier to learn
    never to take things for granted when you are stripped of everything you once held dear. I finally
    became aware I was not who I once was.

  • Chapter 5: Trial By Fire -- Just when it seems like all the pieces were falling into place, someone
    comes to take it all away from me. The Lord giveth, and the state of Ohio comes to taketh away. It is
    easier to fight when your life depends on it, and a desperate animal is not one to be taken lightly.
    The ensuing legal war against the state over my classification and my right to reside in my cheap
    hovel may have ended in my defeat, but the state found this animal to be more lion than lamb. They
    cost me everything I worked hard to achieve. This was getting personal.

  • Chapter 6: Burying the Past -- Finally the opportunity to bury the past arose from a well-earned
    vacation. Never was there a more awkward moment than to talk with those ghosts of a past better
    forgotten. “I'm too far gone,” I said. What else can I say? I can't undo what is done, nor can things
    be the way they were before. Believe me, I've tried to relive the past with the one I loved more than
    life itself. But we cannot live in the past, we can only live for today and hope for tomorrow.

  • Chapter 7: Fighting Goliath -- I barely had time to settle into a new apartment when I saw the
    headline on the Midday News-- Cincinnati proposes tougher restrictions on sex offenders. I grabbed
    my mother and camcorder and made my way to city hall. A dozen sex offenders in the audience, yet
    only I spoke out against this abomination. The reporter who shook my hand said “You've got guts;”
    one of the councilmen said I had some “audacity.” Thankfully, no one said I had a face for radio. If I
    didn't believe that one man can make a difference, I became a believer when I saw the tide of public
    opinion change before my eyes. I would like to think I played a part in the council softening the law.
    A partial victory is a start!

  • Chapter 8: Pardon Me -- I have a chance to become “normal” again. A three-judge panel decides
    my fate, but the law ties their hands as I still have a few obligations left before I can be free of these
    shackles. A partial pardon is at least a step in the right direction.

  • Chapter 9: Phoenix -- After seven years, I have changed from a “shadow hawk” to a “fallen one,”
    and from a “fallen one” to a “Phoenix.” No matter how many times I was reduced to ashes, I was
    born anew, and each time stronger than ever. I began as a child and through the fire I became a
    man.

Part II: The AEROSOL Report (Addressing Errors and Raising Objections to Sex Offender
Legislation)

  • Chapter 10: The Root of the Problem -- The root causes of sexual violence are complex; there
    are no “cookie cutter” sex offenders. That being said, there are strategies to reduce the prevalence
    of sexual crimes in America. However, we must admit the things we don't want to hear, such as how
    our contrary approach to sexuality, namely, our simultaneous glorifying sex in the media while
    treating sex as taboo, is exacerbating the sex problem, especially among our youth. If we are
    serious about preventing sexual violence, we must broaden our approach to the problem,
    expanding that focus on the sex offender to the myriad of internal and external factors that play a
    role in the commission of sex crimes in the first place. Also we must teach people to be responsible
    for their sexual behavior. Only by emphasizing prevention can we have any hope of reducing sex
    crimes.

  • Chapter 11: Monsters, Inc.- Creating Sex Offender Myths -- Sex offender laws were based on
    a number of mantras, myths, misconceptions, and mistruths, all of which have little to no basis in
    fact. These myths have led to a number of disastrous consequences, such as harsh penalties and
    vigilante violence.

  • Chapter 12: The New “Ministry of Propaganda” -- There are a number of high profile
    individuals who have pushed for harsher penalties against former offenders, some of whom fell prey
    to the same sins they were trying to prevent. Sex offenders generate votes and television ratings,
    turning sex offenders into a major industry. Unfortunately, this industry creates a major obstacle to
    prevention of sex crimes and may actually exacerbate the prevalence of sexual violence in our
    society.

  • Chapter 13: Scarlet Letters and Pink Triangles- The Shame Game -- The downward spiral of
    sex offender laws began with registration and community notification laws, or “Megan's Law.”
    Despite a few successful legal challenges, a number of acts of vigilante violence attributed to the
    registry, and the high probability of misuse of the registry, the registry is still and place, and has
    even spread to other offenders and even proposed for AIDS patients. However, due to the sheer
    number of sex offenders already on the registry, proposals have been made to make the stigma
    more visible, such as on license plates and ID cards. It will be only a matter of time before this trend
    progresses towards a scarlet M or the pink triangle.

  • Chapter 14: Banishment by Attrition- Residency Restrictions for Sex Offenders -- The
    harshest of sex offender “regulation,” residency restrictions can best be described as implicit
    banishment or “banishment by attrition.” With few places for sex offenders to live, these laws have
    led to clustering, homelessness, and missing sex offenders, thus effectively compromising the sex
    offender registries. Yet ironically, they are the most popular laws in place; as a result, these demons
    have become difficult to exorcise. Sex offender laws hide behind the guise of being “civil and
    regulatory” rather than “criminal and punitive;” by being civil in nature, these laws by-pass all those
    pesky constitutional rights, like protection from cruel and unusual punishment, due process, ex post
    facto, and equal protection under the law. The key to fighting this demon begins with the argument
    as to whether sex offender laws are civil or criminal, regulatory or punitive.

  • Chapter 15: Pulp Classi-fiction (Sexual “Predator” Laws) -- We don't want to admit it, but we
    cannot predict human behavior. The sexual predator laws try to do just that- predicting which sex
    offender is more likely to re-offend. The experts err on the side of caution, over-assessing risk of
    individual sex offenders, ignoring factors that lower the offender's risk level, while overemphasizing
    the “high-risk” factors. The result is a rather large subgroup within an already stigmatized group
    subject to a greater number of restrictions. This focus on the sexual predator has led to a number
    of even harsher proposals, particularly castration and the death penalty.

  • Chapter 16: The Fourth Reich? -- There is a definite danger in allowing sex offenders to be
    placed into the degraded status in this country. By doing so we are in danger of opening a Pandora’
    s Box of potential problems such as allowing our government to take away liberties that can extend
    to other groups. As the trend continues, it could be possible for the government to deprive liberties
    based upon thought or suspicion alone!

  • Epilogue: The Ameri-CON Way -- The trend is slowly turning away from the “get-tough-on-sex-
    offenders” approach as the myriad of negative consequences have become clearer. The goal is not
    tougher but smarter. We must attack the root causes, implement successful treatment strategies,
    and find the balance between individual rights and public safety. We must abandon widely-held
    myths, tackle the taboos, and have honest discussion about the nature of sexuality with an
    emphasis on prevention and personal responsibility if you are to have any hope of reducing sexual
    violence in America.

Introduction: Fallen hope?

I was born as Derek Logue on a cold Chesapeake night in October 1976, and died on an equally cold
night on February 20, 2000. I merely died in a figurative sense; in the dark of night, I was taken from my
bed, arrested, and charged with a sex crime. Like the chapters of a book, every major milestone in closes
an old chapter of a person’s life and lays the foundation for a new journey to come. For some, that
milestone is a marriage, a career, dedicating your life to your God or faith, or a major achievement. Every
milestone comes with a title, a definition of your life, a second name. Sadly, the milestone that defines my
life in the eyes of society is a single regrettable event with a terrible consequence, a criminal act. The title
that defines my “second life” is three simple words:

REGISTERED SEX OFFENDER

Perhaps no other label in our society elicits as much raw emotion as the label, “registered sex offender.”
This label evokes images of dirty old men waving candy at little girls to entice them into their cars for
sexual pleasure, or the brutal rape-murder of a beautiful, innocent, smiling child. This label carries with it a
“social death sentence;” sex offenders considered are the scourge of society, deserving of death,
castration, concentration camps, and torture. Laws passed specifically against sex offenders reflect this
culture of fear and loathing. There are laws placing us on public registries and cards disclosing our stigma
to our neighbors; laws restrict where we live, work, or hang out; laws keep us incarcerated past our
sentences, castrate us, and execute us, all in the name of “public safety.” Each new proposal creates a
new punishment or expands an existing law, and passes legislature without a second thought, much to the
delight of a society seemingly intent on punishment as much, if not more, as public safety. With this label
comes the myriad of myths and misconceptions about who I am; society sees me as an untreatable
pedophile ready to snatch a child at a moment’s notice. I can even say with confidence many will read this
book with the feeling I’m either getting my just desserts or I’m not being punished enough. There is little
understanding, and even less sympathy. Without a doubt, sex offenders are the modern-day lepers of
society.
During this new life of seven years, I have sought the answer to a number of questions. Once a person
has fallen from grace, is there ever any hope of reclaiming his lost life? Can a man overcome his past, or
his stigma? If life without love can never be whole, when what is life without hope? I have contemplated
what it takes for a person to reach the proverbial point of no return. Many times over the years I have
teetered on the edge of this point, even seeking the end of my life. After all, at least by my death, I would
make people happy.
However, in the past seven years of this second life I found not only the answers I sought, but a purpose
and a reason to justify living out this second life. To find my answers, I had to experience the totality of my
punishment, face my inner demons, and find my place in a society that would rather my body buried than
my past. From the day of my arrest to the last letter typed in this book and beyond, I have continued this
second life. This body is the same, this birth name is the same, and the events of my first life are a
permanent, unchangeable history. But my soul, the person I really am, has changed considerably over the
years. I grew from a fearful, immature and selfish child in a man’s body to the man I am today. I have
confessed my sins, sought forgiveness, made reparations to the state and the victim’s family, and stood
up for my right to reintegrate into society, all things the old me could never do. I am no longer afraid to
admit I made a terrible mistake while simultaneously question or protest laws that do nothing to protect
children from sexual violence.
Virtually everyone seeks the meaning of life; for me, finding common ground between the two sides of this
issue is my purpose. In a way it is penance and soul-searching, but more importantly, my purpose is to
seek the answers to the root problem of sexual violence. For this reason, I felt the need to write Once
Fallen. Once Fallen is, in part, a chronicle of my second life from the day of my arrest to the fight to bury
the final token of my former life, the record itself, by way of a pardon. But Once Fallen is not intended to
be simply a memoir. I seek to reach both sides of the issue. For the society at large, Once Fallen stands
as a case study of how the popular sex offender laws impact actual human beings. For the former
offender, Once Fallen is a message of hope. Both sides seek knowledge and wisdom to solve the sexual
violence issue, and Once Fallen offers up, at the very least, a guide to help point us all in the right
direction.
Through many years of personal experience and growth, along with research and education on the
subject, I have acquired a vast amount of knowledge on the subject. Thus, the second part of my book is
a comprehensive analysis of the root causes of sexual violence and the sex offender laws. If society is
serious about preventing sexual violence, we must change our approach to this subject.

ROOT CAUSES OF SEXUAL VIOLENCE ARE OFTEN NEGLECTED

The root causes of criminal sexual behavior is complex and varies from person to person. My reasons for
committing my crime are unique to me. Thus, finding a solution is no small task. However, there is a
common and disturbing trend in our approach to sexual violence. Society has tended to neglect the root
causes of sexual violence. There are a variety of possible reasons why the prevention model is largely
ignored, but the key to prevention lies in addressing certain problems before they become problems.
Ironically, before we can even address the root causes of sexual violence, we must shift our approach to
the entire issue in the first place. Beginning in the early 1990s, our focus has been on the registered sex
offender, those people who have been convicted of committing a sex crime. Every sex offender law
passed applies to individuals ex post facto. We have spent billions on registries, GPS devices, civil
commitments, and lawsuits defending these laws. However, programs designed to address proper and
realistic sexual behavior in our society are largely ignored, neglected, and sorely under funded.
A significant reason why root causes of sexual violence is largely ignored lies in America’s obsession with
the sex criminal. Virtually every sex offender law in existence has its roots in a sensationalized
“stereotypical kidnapping” that usually ended with the murder of the victim; many of the laws are even
named for a victim which inspired these laws. Virtually every sex crime garners media attention, and
politicians add the obligatory “I’m tough on sex criminals” speech every election year. Humans tend to be
extreme by nature; thus, these reactions are typical. However, emotions often cloud sound judgment and
facts. In order to seek a feasible solution, we must overcome this obsession.

SEX OFFENDER LAWS ARE BASED ON MYTH, NOT FACT

We know all the myths by heart: sex offenders have a high recidivism rate; sex offenders cannot be cured;
sex offenders are all pedophiles who cannot be cured, etc. However, researchers have found these myths
to be myths. Sadly, few people read research papers; many not in the researchers’ field of  expertise find
research papers dull, wordy, confusing, full of technical jargon, and boring. Thus, their target audience is
often limited to others in the researchers’ own field. Getting a politician or a layman to read such reports is
like getting a child to eat a bowl of plain-Jane Corn Flakes without sugar or a tiger proclaiming how “g-r-r-
reat” they are. A few will consume it, but most would rather trash it than eat it.
Sex offender laws were created mainly by people with a noble intention in mind, but emotions, ignorance
of the facts, and the human tendency to lean toward extremism hinders the intent of the law. While the
facts are analogous to a plain corn flake, the novel sex offender law is the sugar-laden cereal with a
famous advertising agent in the box. True authorities on the subject, like John Q. La Fond, Lisa Sample,
Eric S. Janus, Jill Levenson, or Corey Rayburn Yung are not household names, while John Walsh, Mark
Lunsford, Maureen Kanka, and Patty Wetterling, among others, have become the equivalent of the
celebrity on the box, and their emotional message is the sugar that disguises the bitterness of their
product.
However, the tide has been slowly turning slowly but surely. The cereal analogy is appropriate in many
ways, not only in its initial production, but in the change of the product over the years. The formula for
many sugar-laden cereals were changed recently due to concerns that too much sugar and refined was
causing obesity and diabetes; the sugar content was reduced, while more whole grain flour was added to
the formula. Similarly, many people are discovering that these laws are ineffective and rife with negative
consequences. Worse than having virtually no impact on the prevalence of new sex crimes, but it was
actually increasing those factors that increase the likelihood of re-offending! Reforms will be slow in
coming, as those who created these laws are afraid or stubbornly latching on to their failed formula.
Whatever the case, reforms can only occur when we discipline ourselves as we should when dieting, which
means putting away the sweet rationalizations of failed systems, and embracing the healthy solution we
shunned so much in the past.

SEX OFFENDER LAWS: MISSION ACCOMPLISHED?

If candidly telling my story serves just one purpose, I want you to understand the complexity and impact of
these laws on individuals who have served their time but are bound by these laws. Every day I wake up
wondering whether congress has passed a new law with the latest novel approach to dealing with
registrants or expounding on an existing law. Each law is progressively intruding to the point I believe we
will place “the mark” on our foreheads or right hands. Sex offender laws are a powerful and dangerous
tool, but is also prone to deal unintended consequences. Registries have been used by individuals
targeting sex offenders for vigilantism. Residency restrictions have driven registrants “underground” or
have made them homeless. Various laws have caused registrants to experience emotional and financial
instability, which ironically, increases the likelihood of recidivism.
While many readers may share the sentiment sex offenders are “getting what they deserve,” there are far-
reaching consequences to allowing these laws continue to exist. These laws have succeeded in undoing
the progress made by the civil rights movement, creating a degraded class of individuals devoid of many
of the same rights and privileges the common folk take for granted. This trend is slowly spreading to other
realms; the reactions to 9-11 is similar in many ways to our reactions on sex offender laws. In order to
combat the perceived threat of terrorism, our government created the Department of Homeland Security,
introduced a color-coded “Terrorism Threat Level,” which has never dropped below yellow since its
conception, passed the so-called “Patriot Act,” which granted our government nearly god-like abilities to
spy on its own citizens. The media was “embedded” in the “war on terrorism” as the US invaded a country
with a weak military and no real proof of “weapons of mass destruction,” toppled a token bad guy,
declared “Mission Accomplished,” and imposed our way of life on a foreign nation. Years after the mission
was *ahem* accomplished, we are sending more troops every month to this nation, pumping billions into a
nation full of valuable resources while running this nation into a debt our grandchildren will be paying off in
their old age. What did we really accomplish (besides angering almost the entire world)?
Sex offender laws are similar to the 9-11 laws in many ways. The laws were conceived in fear and raw
emotion, passed and imposed without question or objection, grabbed a great deal of media attention, and
gave society a sense that the mission was accomplished. However, after years of the proclamation the
new regime is the omega factor in the evil they were trying to quell, there has been either no change, or
things have gotten progressively worse. Now America has come under scrutiny for torturing terror
suspects. In the same way, sex offender laws, long considered “civil” and “regulatory,” are causing such
severe reactions they are now being considered “criminal” and “punitive” because they cause harm to
those under the law.
Looking at recent history, particularly the events of post WW1 Germany, allowing the government to
degrade the status of one unpopular group of individuals opens the door for government to extend these
laws to other groups. Retroactivity, due process, the constitution in  general, are all thrown out for the
sake of “the children” or “public safety.” If even the least of our citizens are degraded, the possibility of
degrading the rights other “threats” to the American way of life is possible. The US Supreme Court has
never formally struck down the Japanese internment camps of WW2. Looking at Nazi Germany, Hitler
began persecuting “asocials” (gays and sexual deviants) and ended with the Jews. Public fear, ignorance,
and loathing justified the horrible atrocities of these concentration camps created for the sake of “the
children” and “public safety,” and America is in serious danger of doing the same.

If we are looking for a panacea for the prevalence of criminal sexual violence in America, we must
understand what does or does not work. It is my sincerely belief and hope my story and my research
stands as the measure of what has worked, or all to often, what hasn’t work. Only through wisdom and
knowledge shall we rise from the ashes.

Book One: Fallen Hope

My life is an open book. This story is told through my own eyes, heart, and soul. This is a journey of
personal awakening, tragedy and triumph. Within these pages you shall follow me through seven years of
my life starting from the night of my arrest, chronicling my journey through the darkest depths of the
human heart, whether my own dark side or those of the greater society that would ostracize me. There are
two paths in this journey-- would I remain a “fallen one,” or would I rise from the ashes and spread my life
anew like the Phoenix? Though many obstacles lay ahead, the path I chose to take was my own.

Excerpts from Chapter 1: Awakening

My first life ended the night of February 20, 2000, a cold but clear winter night. I was awakened by a
flashlight as an officer pulled me out of bed to “take me downtown.” During the short ride to the jail, the
investigator asked me if I knew why they came for me that night. Deep in my heart I knew the reason why,
but I tried my best to play dumb. I responded with a comment about a fight I had been involved in a few
months earlier. At the station, the investigator questioned me about the crime I had committed. I denied it
at first, even feigned surprise at the accusation, but after a few minutes of questioning I confessed. It felt
as if I was watching a movie from a first-person perspective rather than feeling like this was actually
happening. Perhaps it was a way to cope with the scene unfolding before me, or perhaps I was simply in
shock. I felt so detached from myself it was if I had died, at least in a spiritual sense. It is for this reason I
refer to that night as the end of my first life.
I read a quote from Malcolm X that stated how a man never gets over the prison bars because the bars
burn a permanent mark on a person’s mind for life. I soon learned the meaning of those words as those
bars closed behind me that night. Those bars are unforgiving, indiscriminate, and seemingly eternal.
These bars outlast every coping strategy our mind devises to deal with being trapped within the confines
of the steel cage. Those bars would be my cradle as my second life began, serving as a lasting monument
to a monumental mistake and, ironically, a protective environment for the new life within. Sometimes it
takes an extreme set of circumstances to compel a person to take a harsh look at his inner self.
As the initial shock wore off and the harsh reality of my situation set in, I began to worry more about my
physical life than my spiritual life. Prison life abounds with stories about the fate of those accused of sex
crimes in prison. They are called “chicken hawks,” “baby-rapers,” and “child molesters;” sex offenders are
at “the bottom of the food chain;” “Big Bubba” turns sex offenders into “women.” Information, or at times,
“misinformation,” passes quickly through the prison system, ensuring others know who you are (the rumor
that spread about me was I was arrested for sodomizing a 3-year-old boy). I was placed on suicide watch,
but I was still sharing a cell with another prisoner; perhaps the officers were really more concerned with my
death at the hands of another inmate rather than my own hands. Though many of the inmates were rather
nasty towards me at first, I never experienced any actual violence. In time, I would be treated the same as
everyone else. Despite this, I still feared the destiny awaiting me.
There are many reasons why so many people “find God” in prison. My reasons were a combination of
fear, boredom, and soul-searching. Christianity can be a shield to hide behind in prison; in fact, a couple
of inmates told me to carry a Bible and say, “Praise the Lord, brother,” when approached in prison. It can
also be a tool to occupy your mind, as Bibles are readily available and there is no shortage of prison
ministries. But far more importantly, Christianity is a message of hope and love to those who feel neither.
A jail cell is the ideal environment for those who weren’t receptive to religion in the past to receive the
Word of God. Throughout my life so many people have reached out to me in the name of God but I drove
them away. Now for admittedly selfish reasons I reached out to the God I had rejected for so long…

Finally the fated day was upon me, the cold morning of February 6, 2001. I was taken to court that
morning, and something inside me compelled me to give up on the deception. I finally decided to accept a
guilty plea. In retrospect, a plea of six years for a single charge wasn’t much of a plea. To this day, I can’t
tell you why I accepted a plea which was not much less than the maximum sentence. I’d love to be able to
say it was remorse and guilt over my actions, but in reality, I can’t say that. I believe it was a “let’s just get
this over with” mentality. For months I had tried to put up a fight; I tried to fire my court-appointed attorney,
file a petition questioning the conditions of confinement, and even tried a change of venue; all these
petitions were denied. They would not allow me to bond out, represent myself, or plead nolo contendre.
Even if I wasn’t guilty, I would have been railroaded; sadly most people accused of sex crimes can expect
similar treatment by the justice system. Despite this, I remained a man guilty of committing a sex crime,
and the time had come for me to finally accept my fate. In all my experiences throughout this ordeal, the
day I accepted the guilty plea remains the saddest moment of my life. I wanted to finish myself off, but didn’
t have the courage to cut the length of my arm rather merely slashing across it. I called my ex-mother-in-
law and told her the news; later she came to pick up all my belongings as I prepared for my transfer to
prison. Two weeks later, on February 21, 2001, one year after my arrest, I was transferred to Kilby
Correctional Facility for processing.
Prison processing is likely as close to death as any man in this country would want to be. You are
deprived of every possession you ever had, even your last pair of underwear and your hair (as you are
shaved), strip searched, showered, and your crime publicly exclaimed. I panicked, remembering the
stories about “Bubba,” dropping the soap, and the fate of sex offenders in prison. This landed me in the
psychiatric unit for evaluation. I was placed in a cell with nothing but a rubber mat, a paper gown, and a
roll of toilet paper I used as a pillow. I felt like an animal in a cage; maybe I would have fared better as an
animal. Perhaps the greatest hardship with prison life was learning to adjust to the monotony and the loss
of individuality. In prison you become a number. I was number 215332. And number 215332’s first night in
a state prison was in a cold cell with a rubber mat. By the next morning, the initial shock of my new
environment wore off, and after a brief conversation with the psychologist, I was placed back in the intake
dorm…

Despite having such tools of rehabilitation at my disposal, I would work on many things except confronting
the issues which led me to prison. I was experiencing the feelings common to all inmates; even among
those who seek God, many do not want to admit their own problems, though we are quite proficient at
pointing out others’ faults. I needed a “wake up call,” and prison was the ideal place for that. Prison doesn’
t care that I didn’t want to work all day in the kitchen. The prison psychiatrist wasn’t much help, either; he
said all my problems would be solved if “someone beat your ass one good time.” People typically go to
counselors for help, but for me, it was as much a crutch as it was a sincere desire to seek help. However, I
could not rely on my crutch anymore. Eventually I had to learn to deal with my issues by facing them rather
than running away. The hardest step to make in the path to rehabilitation was the first step, and the time
was finally ripe for my first step.

Once Fallen Part 2

Addressing Errors and Restoring Order to Sex Offender Legislation (“The AEROSOL Report”)--
Introduction

In the past decade or so, American society has focused on laws that punish individuals convicted of sex
crimes long beyond prison sentences. It seems with every high profile sex crime (not to mention a
subsequent election period), legislators introduce either new legislation or an expansion of an existing law.
In the decade or so since “Megan’s law” passed, our society has shifted their views from “sex offender
laws are wrong” to “kill all sex offenders/ these laws aren’t doing enough.” Increasingly debilitating laws are
introduced on a regular basis, passed with virtually no opposition, and largely supported by the general
public without even a thought of the consequences. Even in the face of evidence to the contrary, we
continuously push for even more legislation because we feel we “aren’t doing enough.”
As a culture, we are seeking to progress rather than regress, and sex offender laws symbolize a
regression. We have reintroduced concepts held in contempt by previous generations:  public humiliation,
a degraded class status, and the incapacitation model of justice. Despite the dangers of this sentiment,
few individuals have spoken out against these laws.
However, resistance to sex offender legislation is growing. Sex offender laws have been proven to be
“ineffective, inefficient, and counterproductive.” Judges, prosecuting attorneys, sheriff’s offices, and even
child victim advocates have called for wholesale reforms of sex offender laws, and even total opposition to
some of the laws. In 2007, the media has released more reports critical of sex offender legislation than in
any other year since the passage of Megan’s law in 1996.
All this opposition begs the question: what IS the proper way to prevent sex crimes in America? American
government spends billions on sex offender legislation that have done nothing to address prevention.
Prevention and education programs are limited and are largely forsaken in our society. In the first half of
Once Fallen, I gave my personal story to illustrate how the laws affect the individual sex offender. One
thing I hope you find striking is the freedom I had whether or not to re-offend regardless of the law.
Hopefully this illustration will lead you to question the efficacy of our current laws. The second half of this
book addresses these concerns from an intellectual standpoint. Is there truly a way to prevent sex crimes?
Do these laws impact criminal sexual behavior, or are we merely blowing more air than an aerosol can?
Are these laws causing “more harm than good?” In order for us to find these answers, we must address
the issue as a whole rather than the narrow focus on the former offender.

(Note: Currently I included the references in the work, but as the work is reformatted in final book form, the
references will be transferred to a bibliography)

Excerpts from Chapter 10: The Root of the Problem

Without a doubt, criminal sexual acts are among the most traumatic and horrifying acts committed against
another human being; in many cases, the repercussions lasts months, years, or even a lifetime. Sex
crimes are more disturbing if a child is involved. As a human being first and foremost, I believe that if a
person commits a sex crime, that person shall be punished with criminal sanctions. As a rehabilitated sex
offender, I believe a person convicted as a sex criminal be held accountable and be taught responsibility
and accountability for their actions, to make amends for transgressions and settle debts with those hurt by
the crime, and fulfill the court-imposed sanctions. As a Christian, I believe forgiveness does not detract
any more from these obligations than King David was in seeking forgiveness for his sin against Uriah the
Hittite.  In no way should sexual abuse and rape be tolerated and go unpunished. In this sense my views
and the views of society meld.
However, there is a great divide regarding what must be done to reduce the perceived prevalence of
deviant sexual activity. Much of the current sex offender legislation merely punishes an act already
committed. Legislation has done virtually nothing to study the root causes of sex crimes, and even less to
actually address the issues. It leaves little wonder why sex offender legislation has virtually no impact on
actual sex crimes. Thus, my duty as an advocate is to find a solution to the dilemma that finds the delicate
balance between public safety and successful reintegration and rehabilitation of former offenders. In the
spirit of the “ounce of prevention” slogan, I believe any serious discussion of sex crimes should begin with
learning the root causes deviant sexual behavior….

Sexual Responsibility a “Hard Sell”

Chief researcher Dr. David Finkelhor emphasizes the need for educating our children about proper sexual
behavior, especially in the online era. His concern is that he found most dangerous was the teenagers
were willing to talk about sex online with complete strangers, and going to sex chat rooms and websites
(“kind of behaving in what we call like an internet daredevil”). His conclusion is similar to mine- educating
about the consequences of inappropriate sexual behavior (Dr. David Finkelhor, Internet Caucus Advisory
Committee, 20070503youth, www.escriptionist.com, p. 4-5)

So for example, we have to educate them about why hooking up with a 32-year-old guy has major
drawbacks like jail, bad press, public embarrassment. We have to educate them about the ploys that
people they’re going to meet online might us to gain their trust. We have to talk to them about why they
should be discouraging rather than patronizing sites and people who are doing offensive things online,
fascinating as that may seem to them
” (ibid., p. 5).

Hopefully by now, after reading my story and seeing how easily even a juvenile can be branded a sex
offender, you will understand why I think it is imperative we teach our children proper sexual behavior long
before they become adults. But as Dr. Finkelhor put it, “…unfortunately, these aren’t easy sells” (ibid.).
Part of the main reason why is the “taboo” stigma surrounding sex talk in general, but in using the word
“sexual responsibility” some people come to the conclusion we are somehow blaming the victim or
removing the concept of accountability and responsibility on the part of the perpetrator. This is simply
untrue.
I remembered a discussion I had on www.sexcriminals.com regarding dress codes, which led to some
pretty heated arguments. A recent fashion trend involved tight pants with provocative expressions like
“Booty-licious” emblazoned on the buttocks. Immediately I was criticized for bringing it up because
somehow the women on the forum assumed I was implying people who wore such things were “asking to
be sexually assaulted.” That wasn’t the point I was trying to make. However, I did not believe children
should be allowed to wear clothing designed to warrant attention to a sexual part of their bodies. I believe
the aversion is a result of our belief in freedom; simply put, we want freedom to do whatever we want.
However, freedom comes with great responsibility. While it is no less wrong for a criminal to rob a man with
a hundred dollar bill strapped to his chest than if he hid it in his shoe, but common sense would tell us
strapping a hundred dollar bill to your chest is rather irresponsible. Society stresses vigilance, yet when
anyone suggests an act of vigilance that involves a small personal sacrifice, society rebels against the
notion.
On the other hand, there has been a trend towards “hyper vigilance.” A prime example of hyper vigilance
was a controversial ad campaign for the Virginia Department of Health’s sex abuse hotline. The ad
featured a photo of a man holding a little girl’s hand and the caption, “It doesn’t feel right when I see them
together.” Hundreds of men complained because the ad implied every time you see a father out with his
child, he is likely a sexual predator. The Virginia Department of Health defended the ads, stating that men
are more likely than women to sexually abuse children. The same article reminds us John Walsh had
suggested never hire a male babysitter (Jeff Zaslow, “Moving On: Are We Teaching Our Kids To Be
Fearful of Men?” Wall Street Journal, August 23, 2007).
Predator panic has diverted us from feasible preventive measures, focusing on released sex offenders
and now men in general. Patty Wetterling of the Jacob Wetterling Foundation (and mother of the missing
child which led to the first sex offender registry in America) has advocated spending more money on
programs working with abused youth and prevent troubled youth from committing the crimes on the first
place. Wetterling found the same results as noted in the Sample and Kadleck study, namely, legislators
were unwilling to read reports and had little knowledge of the nature of sex crimes. Many legislators have
even stated, “don’t confuse me with the facts” (Dan Gunderson, Minnesota Public Radio, “A better
approach to sex offender policy, June 18, 2007, http://minnesota.publicradio.
org/display/web/2007/06/11/sexoffender1/).
In short, society chooses to hold fast to their preconceived notions about the origins of sex crimes, while
largely ignoring those external root causes we as a society can intervene in and address. This is
significant when you consider the fact that 86% of inmates in prison for committing sex crimes are first time
offenders (US Dept. of Justice, “Sex Inmates In Prison,” 1997). At the least, sex offender laws have done
nothing to address the six of every seven sex offender inmates who are serving a prison sentence for the
first time. When you consider the fact repeat offenders are more likely to be incarcerated than first time
offenders, it is safe to say we are underestimating the amount of sex crimes committed by first time
offenders. Our narrow focus on sex offenders has led to neglect the vast majority of sex crimes occurring
in our society!
To summarize, I believe any strategy to reduce sex crimes should have prevention as its foundation. While
deviant sexual behavior is a product of varying degrees of internal nature and external factors, our
contrary culture has emphasized the internal factors while simultaneously propagating external factors
which increases the likelihood of deviant sexual behavior. Prevention should start with teaching sexual
responsibility with the same dedication that we teach in operating motor vehicles or other things that can
cause harm when misused or abused. Sadly, since we have neglected to teach responsible sexual
behavior for whatever reason, whether through neglect or an attempt to “shelter“ children from the world,
mass media has filled the void, reinforcing faulty beliefs through innuendo while reducing inhibitions
toward responsible sexual behavior. Teaching children sexual responsibility is easier and superior to a
futile attempt at environmental censorship; however, our negative attitude toward even suggesting the
teaching of sexual responsibility constitutes a barrier to prevention. Only by subverting the current views
and trends in our current culture can we have any real hope of reducing and preventing sex crimes in
America.
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